QUAIL MUTTERINGS #21. The Basketball Hoop (April 8, 2013)

QUAIL MUTTERINGS #21.  The Basketball Hoop (April 8, 2013)

 

One of my meanderings up the canyon finds me halted, standing on a bare spot of brown next to the ancient oak which held my childhood’s basketball hoop. That particular tree, however, isn’t there anymore, but the one right next to it still is. But for this moment everything is how it was – leaving me standing in my past.

The worn geometric patterns on the faded orange ball allow my left hand to grasp, dribble and maintain control of its direction on this uneven ground. The regular, hollow thumping mesmerizes and pulls me deeper into my pre-teen body. The one that is constantly on the move. Aiming high I shoot up towards the dusty green leaves allowing my buoyant, rubber friend to descend directly down through the net with a “swoosh.” There’s no flat backboard to bank off of. If I want to make a bank shot my hands have learned, through practice, to use the less curved portion of the trunk above as a surrogate.

The warm, dry breeze, carrying the surrounding scents of sage brush and decomposing horse manure, sends my stray hairs dancing, tickling my forehead. I smooth them back behind my ears with the palm of my hand using the sweat as a natural hair spray. The rough bark of the oak pokes my back when I lean into it to remove a leaf from between my dirty toes. A cloud of dust reaches me and I turn to notice my cousin riding his bike over to the house, his tires slipping on the dirt as he peddles too fast for his treads to grip. He won’t interrupt me. He’s just out for a jaunt. I have plenty of time, the sun is only beginning its descent to the west.

A few short steps take me to the grey, metal bar that Dad installed for me to flip around and hang from – to use up some of my excess energy. My hands wrap around the familiar iron rod and I kick over the top. Pumping into a cast I shoot my right leg through, under my body, to straddle the bar. After four mil-circles I turn sideways and do a few windmills before putting my other leg over to hang from my knees. This feels good. A different perspective on things is interesting. The underside of the cupped oak leaves reveal exposed veins, part of the tree’s circulatory system. The mottled, hazy blue sky holds buttermilk clouds to the east while the sparkling light trickles through the foliage canopy to a spot on my tummy, since my ripped T-shirt hangs around my armpits. Even now, I’m reminded of a previous time when I was five or six, hanging on my knees eating potato chips. A red ant had crawled into the salty bag lying on the ground and was on a chip that I put into my mouth. “Ouch” did that hurt!

Every so often I get whiffs of the existence of tree ants so it’s no surprise when I see highways of them marching up and down the massive tree trunk. Another reminder of the long, luxurious days of summer, my favorite time of year. When there’s no school and time and freedom stretch out around me. The creosoted, split-rail wooden chute (a narrow, four-posted mini corral which Mom built for treating sick horses) hangs from the ground nearby. Or is it standing on the sky? From my upside down vantage point it’s kind of hard to tell. It’s similar to the view I have while lying supine on my surfboard, in the pond down the road, when I tip my head backwards into the water. Either way, it’s a trippy sensation you can get without being in a drug-induced state. Humans of all cultures seek paranormal sensations. As children, didn’t we all enjoy turning around and around in circles long enough to get dizzy and fall down?

For now, my reverie has subsided and I head back to the house. The grass is growing in the middle of the road like those horse and buggy lanes of yesteryear and wildflowers are poking up everywhere. Spring is in the air and I can feel it. And that means that those long, luxurious dog-days of summer are on their way.

 

Chi Varnado is the author of two books. Her memoir, A CANYON TRILOGY: Life Before, During and After the Cedar Fire, and her children’s book, The Tale of Broken Tail, are both available from www.amazon.com. Chi directs the Ramona Dance Centre: www.ramonadancecentre.com. Her collection of essays, Quail Mutterings, can be found on www.chivarnado.com.

QUAIL MUTTERINGS #20. Owl Serenade (February 2013)

QUAIL MUTTERINGS #20.  Owl Serenade (February 2013)

 

Every night, lately, the owls have been making their voices heard in the canyon. Recently, when I got home after dark, I could hear two owls nearby, in the creekbed, communicating in the old familiar “Whoo whoo” language. I also thought I heard a dog barking in the distance. But it wasn’t my dog. He’d met me at the gate. Then I realized it wasn’t a dog at all that I heard and it wasn’t all that far away. There was actually an owl up on the mountainside. It had a repetitive, staccato-sounding hoot. After a little research I figured it might have been a Spotted Owl, although there don’t seem to be many of those in this area.

I love hearing the symphony of the owls each night, floating in through my open window. Even if I’m having trouble sleeping the calming sounds of the natural world are soothing and make me wish that our world could always feel this peaceful. The week leading up to full moon, like this, always gives me pleasure when I look out over the creekbed or up at the shining boulders speckling the mountainsides. There’s a magical feel to it – lending a possibility to all good things, even if only right here and right now.

I wonder how owls have become affiliated with wisdom. Is it because they can swivel their heads up to 270 degrees independently from the rest of their bodies? Is it those big, inquisitive eyes which seem capable of pulling your thoughts straight out of you? Or is it simply their nature of staying up all night like those intellectual members of academia?

I remember my mom writing a little song when I was a kid. She was taking a piano class, as an elective, while attending San Diego State College (not “University” yet) pursuing her Geology degree. The lyrics were as follows:

The wise old owl

sat in an oak.

The more he heard

the less he spoke.

The more he heard

the less he spoke.

 

At the time it had sounded rather simple and repetitive to me, but I think I understand it more clearly now. As a teacher, I can see its significance. We, as parents and educators, may find ourselves continuously preaching at our children. Sometimes, it seems that the more we say the less they listen. If all they hear from us is constant noise then it can’t help but dull their senses. At some point, everyone needs to shut down from anything annoyingly repetitive to keep from going crazy. It’s a little like that torturing procedure where they strap you down and simply drip water onto your forehead at regular intervals.

John Holt, a well-known child advocate, teacher and author, said that once, as an adult, when he noticed his own defensive reaction in response to not grasping what was being taught [told] said, “…Please stop talking about it, and just let me look at it.” Then he thought to himself, “Remember what you have learned about learning. Be like a child. Use your eyes. Gag that teacher’s mouth inside your head, asking all those questions. Don’t try to analyze this thing, look at it, take it in.” He reminds us in HOW CHILDREN LEARN that “What is essential is to realize that children learn independently, not in bunches; that they learn out of interest and curiosity, not to please or appease the adults in power; and that they ought to be in control of their own learning, deciding for themselves what they want to learn and how they want to learn it.”

I’ve noticed, too, that kids pick up on things when they’re interested and care to learn about it. Hammering a youngster with letters and numbers when they don’t have any context to associate it with begins an exercise in frustration for both student and teacher alike. That’s one reason why it’s important to expose our youngsters to many different experiences so that when they are learning to read they can associate the words with some real thing they can identify with. Without tangible evidence in our memories, there’s not much hope of understanding or absorbing anything when the task of learning how to read is so new and challenging, in and of itself.

On the other end of this spectrum, when we’re older and have been reading for decades, simply flipping through a magazine has the potential to spark a new interest. Perhaps something we didn’t even know we cared about. That’s partly because we’ve had more exposure to life’s experiences and can associate it with many things.

Anyway, just last month we’d gone to Pennsylvania for my husband’s step-mother’s funeral. She was a wonderfully positive person who’d always been interested in others, letting them expound about themselves instead of going on about herself. Listening and helping others feel worthwhile came naturally to her. She constantly allowed herself to learn new things.

Kent and I stayed in the historic district of Philadelphia for those few days in January. We wandered Elfreth’s Alley, which was lined by well-preserved three to four story buildings with trap doors out front leading to basements below. I would guess that some, if not all, of those beautifully painted doors have been replaced over the centuries. They looked to be in strikingly good condition. These eighteenth century townhouses were actually inhabited by current renters. I found it intriguing that modern day people lived in, what seemed to me, a museum. The architecture of those old brick buildings struck my fancy. A few blocks away, in Carpenter’s Hall, where the First Continental Congress met in 1774, a small portion of a wall was opened up to display the aged lathing underneath. Horse-drawn carriages parked along the streets awaiting patrons wanting to sight-see. The Liberty Bell rests inside a building where no admission is charged. While Kent read every placard containing dates and other historical jargon, I stood in awe of the physical beauty of all that incredible hand-built history. Our interests as well as our preferred methods of learning differ. I was never much of a history buff – with all those important figures and dates. Perhaps it was subconscious, on my part, that I ended up marrying a historian. Who knows, we just might be able to pick up a few things from each other by osmosis.

A huge statue of Ben Franklin presides over the cemetery where he lays buried – a little like a wise old owl in a tree surveying his hunting grounds. This fellow was an extremely industrious U.S. statesman, writer and scientist – a true academic. His contributions include setting up a printing house in Philadelphia, inventing the lightening rod and helping frame the Declaration of Independence. His ‘Franklin’ stove used less wood than a fireplace and when he got tired of taking his glasses on and off he came up with an original pair of bifocals – framing the individual sections of glass. He also made a catheter for his sick brother and a simple odometer for his mail delivering carriage…. This guy really knew how to keep the love of learning alive.

After all the hassles of a missed flight and other modern security irritations we felt grateful to come home to our little nook in the canyon. Where, once again, the owls and other natural inhabitants fill the night with their reassuring voices. So, I say “Whoo whoo” to you. Open your window tonight and see if you, too, can hear their wonderful notes of wisdom.

 

Chi Varnado is the author of two books. Her memoir, A CANYON TRILOGY: Life Before, During and After the Cedar Fire, and her children’s book, The Tale of Broken Tail, are both available from www.amazon.com. Chi directs the Ramona Dance Centre: www.ramonadancecentre.com. Her collection of essays, Quail Mutterings, can be found on www.chivarnado.com 

QUAIL MUTTERINGS #18. Isolation… Connectedness… (October 28, 2012)

QUAIL MUTTERINGS #18.  Isolation… Connectedness… (October 28, 2012)

 

I guess I had it all wrong. My thinking was that I had already gone through the empty nest syndrome after my youngest went off to college last year. But evidently there was more to come. Way more. My second daughter had moved out when she went to college, but then returned to live on our property bringing her fiancé with her. A wedding, a baby and a divorce followed over the next six years. I loved having my family around. It was the best of both worlds. You see, we could be together anytime we wanted while living in separate dwellings. But now, my daughter and four-year-old grandson have moved “down the hill” to be closer to the conveniences of city life – I guess. While it may seem like a good move on their part, it’s like torture to me.

In fact, to be honest, it feels downright wrong. There have been five generations of our family living here in the canyon and for better or worse this sense of family and community feels absolutely right. I know in this day and age our youngsters are expected to flex their wings and go out on their own. But in other cultures this is not the norm. It could be considered abandonment. In the old days extended families lived together with the elders helping to care for the youngsters while the parents went out to work. That whole scenario helped promote cohesion, love, trust and respect for the whole group, crossing generations. However, these days, if one of our grown children fails to launch it’s determined to be a negative thing. Either the parents didn’t do their job right or there’s something wrong with the young adult.

But I’m not really speaking of this scenario. I’m referring more to the matter of choice. The idea is that raising kids in a multi-generational family is a much more viable option than attempting to exist in a vacuum – with society’s whims extolling their pressures without there being a safety net to fall back on, for any one of the group. We all know that it takes a village to successfully raise our young. The goal is to help them reach a place where they can be successful in relationships, be able to provide for their own families… In essence, to be loving, caring and contributing members of our society.

Speaking of family groups, we’ve been seeing a group of deer in our area. Sometimes as many as seven, as a couple neighbors have told me. The buck has big, beautiful antlers and each individual appears overly tame. I’d like to see them a little less comfortable around us humans and our machinery, for their own good. After all, not all of us are of a trustworthy sort. Things are pretty dry these days and there’s probably a real shortage on their food supply, which brings them in closer to civilization. These deer are much darker colored, almost a seal-brown, instead of the light-tan I remember from my childhood.

Somehow, I’d like to see our families stick together more as a group – like those deer. Sharing food, cooperating with labor and recreating together can bring more genuine meaning to these activities. There’s just two of us left in the canyon these days, my husband and me. Gardening and growing goodies to share feels a bit empty without my offspring here to share it with. Yes, I know. I’m obsessing over what most people would consider, “No Big Deal.” But to me it feels like a huge loss.

When I lay in bed at night fighting insomnia, the hooting of the owls sends me a mixed message. I feel comforted and grateful to be living in this rural canyon surrounded by the wild sounds of the night. But they also bring a melancholy mood, reminding me of how lonely it can feel here at times. Nevertheless, I realize that I will adjust, eventually, and regroup my inner calm. I recognize that my ability to meditate and quiet my mind will probably return and grant with it a new perspective and appreciation for what is. It’s just that this period of adjustment is not very comfortable. I wasn’t prepared for it.

It’s like the surprise rain we got back in August. It poured while the lightening struck and the thunder roared. I sat out on the front porch yelling into the deluge, harmonizing with the rolls of thunder. It felt wonderful. That unexpected treat of restoring moisture to the earth also created ruinous ruts in the road and front yard. We’ll have to bring out shovels the next time it comes. Having these tools ready can come in handy when the unexpected happens. Such as when half your family moves away. My morning meditation is one such tool for my mind, helping to quiet myself enough to let the subtle awakenings emerge which allow me to be a better person. And to slow down my reactions and responses to more positively affect future outcomes. So, “Here’s to the owls,” who remind us how isolated, yet how connected we all are to everything around us.

 

Chi Varnado is the author of two books. Her memoir, A CANYON TRILOGY: Life Before, During and After the Cedar Fire and her children’s book, The Tale of Broken Tail are both available on www.amazon.com. Chi directs the Ramona Dance Centre. Her collection of essays, Quail Mutterings, can be found on www.chivarnado.com.