Three years old! My second grandson turned three the end of February. Where did the months and years go? By the time we get well into our second half-century of life, time whizzes by at an alarming rate. So I figure I’d better stop and take a minute to aim my lasso, in order to try to catch the moments that I don’t want to miss out on. This takes premeditated intention – so the most important things don’t slip by before it’s too late. And one of those things is spending time with the grandkids – both individually and as a group. Each one is a terrific human being with an outlook on life specifically their own. I learn a lot from each of the three.
One of my favorite things to do, when I’m with just one of them, is to be quiet and simply observe. I can almost see the wheels turning in their heads as they work through the process of discovery: building with Lego’s, filling a bucket with sand, looking at a book, re-enacting real life… It fascinates me. I’m spellbound watching them entertain themselves. I sincerely hope that they can keep this interest in learning alive, and not let boredom and a constant need of outside stimulation take over.
The young bring us new life and fresh ways of looking at things. Spring has almost arrived. Already, little squirrels are scurrying over rocks and eating the chickens’ food, in spite of getting pecked at. Lilac buds threaten to burst into bloom. Some already have and emanate intoxicating fragrances. A juvenile Red-tailed Hawk carries on throughout the day, begging his busy parents for nourishment. Sometimes he calls from a tree on the ridge or a crag in a boulder. At times, he’s on the wing, calling from above, and I always pause to acknowledge him. I feel it’s an honor to inhabit the same place and time as these sentient beings. The green grass is thriving, thanks to the recent rains and warm sunshine, filling the horses’ bellies and blanketing the canyon’s landscape.
But trees are falling, both dead and alive, demonstrating the impermanence of life. After losing a huge ancient oak, months ago, I felt a need to honor its existence instead of sawing it all up for firewood. After extensive research and networking, I contacted some expert wood workers in the San Diego area and, to make a long story short, much of the tree’s lumber has now been milled and a few bowls were turned. Two of them adorn my kitchen as graceful reminders of life’s beauty and fragility.
So again, I come back to the importance of living my life more consciously, trying to embrace what is, as best I can, and act with reverence toward all plants, animals and minerals. And attempt to consume less, in any fashion, so that all may benefit more. Here’s to you, me and us. May we all cherish the moment.
Chi Varnado’s memoir, A CANYON TRILOGY: Life Before, During and After the Cedar Fire and her children’s book, The Tale of Broken Tail are available on www.amazon.com. Her collection of essays, Quail Mutterings, can be found on www.chivarnado.com. You can follow us on www.Facebook.com/gnomewoodcanyon.