QUAIL MUTTERINGS #63. Ode to the Front Porch (October 2021)

          Front porches are the best, aren’t they? They allow one to invite the outside world in while at the same time giving you a front row seat to what’s going on out yonder. Folks can visit with their neighbors across the way, as long as they’re outside at the same time. It also offers a quick check-in with the weather or a place to scope out some different sounding bird… I can hardly express all that it is for me. I don’t look out on any neighbors—just trees, shrubs, and a creek bed out front, with a multitude of birds, lizards, and other species of wildlife everywhere. So, naturally, I commune with them.

            This year, it seems as though I spend way more time than ever before napping on the little porch couch. It’s an old thing I picked up off the side of the road back in 2008 and delivered it directly to my dad’s new ‘temporary’ place where he lived the last few months of his life. After that, we re-homed it to the front porch of our log cabin where it is now adorned with an old bedsheet. I’m trying to preserve my comfy outdoor ‘day bed’ for as long as possible.

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          My grandma in Mississippi had a wonderful front porch. When we were kids, my sister and I would crowd onto the porch swing with our Southern cousins and tell scary stories on those sultry summer evenings. It would groan at just the right times to send us shrieking back into the house. Sometimes we’d go visit our aunt and uncle for lunch. You had to walk through their screened-in porch to enter the house. Everybody there had a front porch. It didn’t seem to occur to anyone to have it any other way.

            I’ve often dreamed about clusters of small homes, all with front porches, built around a communal green area—all facing each other. This way, if you saw anybody out there that would mean they were up for socializing: a quick “hello”, an opportunity to return the borrowed bowl of sugar, or a chance to join a community happy hour—all from the comforts of one’s own front porch.

            Some of the best conversations are had on the front porches across America—threading through time. Snippets of literary genius can be heard while snapping beans, singing songs or simply sitting for a spell. I’ve always needed to snatch as much time outside as possible, every day, or I just don’t feel very well. I’m not sure if it’s the fresh air or the breeze or the nature surrounding us. Porches help make all that happen more easily.

            Hammocks are a pleasure as well. Many an afternoon I’ve wandered down to the creekbed and reclined into the crisscrossed rope web to read a book, stare up through the tops of the trees, and then doze off. Not much reading going on, I’m afraid. The dog seems to enjoy the soft sand beneath and closes her eyes as well.

            Back up to the porch—the rocking chair beckons. The squirrels run to and fro, chirping their warnings over there in Squirrel Town. In the meadow beyond the creekbed, their elaborate burrows and tunnels, beneath the desert bird of paradise bushes, house a good many of them. Their visible numbers have dwindled recently as they prepare, or have already begun, to hibernate. Underground they’ll sleep, with their body temperature lowering to match the cold in the burrow. Heart rates drop and breathing slows as they fall deeper and deeper into a sporadic winter’s nap. They awaken as the surroundings warm up and their internal temperatures begin to rise, and a few may surface temporarily. When spring arrives, there are scores of them everywhere.

            So, I stand up and nod to my front yard neighbors, at least those that remain to gather a few more acorns to hide, and often forget about. And here’s a wave to you, my neighbors across town—from my front porch to yours. Let’s be neighborly.

 

Chi Varnado has four newly published books. The Old House in the Country, women’s fiction; and three YA novels in The Dance Centre Presents series. Her memoir, A CANYON TRILOGY: Life Before, During and After the Cedar Fire and her children’s book, The Tale of Broken Tail are also available on www.amazon.com. Her collection of essays, Quail Mutterings, can be found on www.chivarnado.com or www.dancecentrepresents.com. You can follow her on Instagram or on www.Facebook.com/dancecentrepresents.

QUAIL MUTTERINGS #62. Happy New Year! (September 2021)

            What? New Years already? I know it may sound strange, but that’s what this time is for me—and always has been. When I was a kid the final days of summer marked an end to my untethered happiness and freedom. The start of school threatened to undermine my sense of well-being as visions of long hours trapped indoors permeated every bone in my body—lowering a cold, dark veil of doom. I can’t help but think that my feelings of malaise, which tend to surface toward the end of each summer, might very well stem from these strong childhood emotions. Intellectually, I understand that this state is very confining and limiting, but it still takes a bit of an attitude adjustment to move past it.

Later, as an adult, this time of year had me preparing and beginning a new session of dance classes at the studio, along with the collaborative decision of what story ballet would be our focus that year. It was all so new and exciting each time, launching our whole family and so many wonderful Ramona dancers into another cohesive work of art, incorporating music, choreography, dramatics, gymnastics, costuming, dancing, backdrops… It developed a life of its own; one that I feel extremely grateful to have been able to enjoy for so many decades.

            This fall ushers in a new school year, and the weather begins to cool ever so slightly. The sun arcs across a lower part of the sky casting longer shadows and yellowing light. Vacations come to an end, extra-curricular activities fill children’s after-school hours, the holidays slide into view… And the thought of another year of not getting together (indoors) with relatives puts a damper on what we can safely look forward to.

            But as The New Year awakens, there are glimmers of hope out there. The deer are still going about their business here in the canyon and more are coming in closer for water and food. Rutting season is approaching—so there’s that. Something to look forward to? This past spring’s young, who still look so vulnerable, may not think so. But who knows? I certainly don’t.

            But this is the time of year when I reassess the things I’ve been doing: projects, writing, puttering, attaining or not attaining goals… and do some hard thinking about my priorities. Am I fulfilling my obligations to myself, family and community? Am I being productive enough to keep me satisfied? What can I reasonably look forward to for the coming year(s)? Not that I come up with all the answers—or even close. But for me, it beats frittering my time away without at least contemplating the alternatives.

            Sometimes one day can drag on as if it were five while others disappear in the blink of an eye. This year has flown by and I find myself trying to grab it by the tail and ride it into the next—hoping (beyond hope?) that we will come out of this pandemic intact and perhaps better for it.

            No matter what all this may mean for each of us—I wish you all A Happy New Year!

 

Chi Varnado has four newly published books. The Old House in the Country, women’s fiction; and three YA novels in The Dance Centre Presents series. Her memoir, A CANYON TRILOGY: Life Before, During and After the Cedar Fire and her children’s book, The Tale of Broken Tail are also available on www.amazon.com. Her collection of essays, Quail Mutterings, can be found on www.chivarnado.com or www.dancecentrepresents.com. You can follow her on Instagram or on www.Facebook.com/dancecentrepresents.

QUAIL MUTTERINGS #61. In the Now/The Search for Common Ground (August 2021)

            If I’m having trouble being present in the here and now, our six-month-old Aussie/Border Collie will snap me right back. She thinks nothing of ‘disturbing the peace’ and bringing my attention front and center—onto her.

            “Please pet me. Let’s go for a walk. How about a game of fetch? Or better yet—yahoo time with no leash!”

            These days it’s all about the dog and what she needs during the day. But sometimes (a gross understatement) there is work to be done and I have to figure out when and how to do it, and with or without her. Things like ongoing maintenance issues around the property: broken pipes, backed-up drains, faulty irrigation systems, battling ants and mice…

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            During the past decade or so we’ve taken to leaving the car hoods up to dissuade rats from seeking comfort in the engine compartments and chewing wires, which can end up costing hundreds of dollars to repair. Our practices would never fly in an HOA neighborhood where garage doors are required to be shut and clotheslines are prohibited. Aah, the country life.

            I’m grateful every day to live out here amongst the rocks, trees, birds and lizards—especially these days as we attempt to skirt around the recent Covid surge and polarizing speech surrounding the many issues which have come to a head. When crossing paths with other people, I strive to find our common ground. There is always something we can agree on, or at least we can try to see through each other’s eyes and go from there. Blanket statements about anything won’t buy much. How can we be absolutely certain about things anyway? Just straighten up and smile—over and over and over again.

            Besides, everything is shades of gray. We’re only human and really can’t possibly see the whole picture, no matter what it is. When I was a kid and stated some fact or point of view, others sometimes asked if I was sure. I remember replying, “No, I’m not totally sure.” Heck, I wasn’t even certain, beyond any doubt, that I was really here at all. It could all be a dream or something beyond my comprehension. Even now, I still think that everything is shades of gray—even things we may feel strongly about. And definitely for what we think things should be like. Why can we no longer admit that we simply do not know?

            So—back to the dog. Last Sunday Zelda and I hiked up the mountain behind our house and sat on a flat boulder part way up to watch the fog roll into the canyon as vapor trails. For an uncommonly long time for her, she laid quietly beside me while I sat cross-legged admiring the view. Then we both heard footsteps coming down the trail, not human, and focused our attention. A doe with lovely long lashes peeked around a rock and looked at us. I said, “Hello, beautiful,” and Zelda produced a soft little growl without moving. Fortunately, she was on the leash and didn’t bolt after the deer when it turned away and trotted back up the hill.

            Thank goodness for the little happies like this in our lives to remind us that we’re not alone and that life is special. One of my little happies this summer has been adorning our five-year-old granddaughter with elaborate (for me) seaweed costumes on our forays to the beach. And we draw hopscotch patterns on the sand with our toes and I watch her and a friend dance along the shore, wearing their towels as cloaked actors. Every couple of weeks a few of my women friends come over for a no-frills, sit out in the shade, gab session that usually only lasts an hour or two. But it’s hopefully enough to sustain us until next time.

            So, in the meantime, I’ll try to remember to stay positive, straighten up, and smile—over and over and over again.

 

Chi Varnado has four newly published books. The Old House in the Country, women’s fiction; and three YA novels in The Dance Centre Presents series. Her memoir, A CANYON TRILOGY: Life Before, During and After the Cedar Fire and her children’s book, The Tale of Broken Tail are also available on www.amazon.com. Her collection of essays, Quail Mutterings, can be found on www.chivarnado.com or www.dancecentrepresents.com. You can follow her on Instagram or on www.Facebook.com/dancecentrepresents.